Friday, May 30, 2008

been as rountine as it can be at work, with some events that will captivate me for the rest of my life....

i guess its oni in singapore that we have such a diversified cultural, as i was ordering my hokkien pwan mee in dialect, i was wondering how was it to order in english... SIR, 1 PLATE OF HOKKIEN MEE WITHOUT CHILLI, TAKEAWAY. haix, even though i can bitch about how bad tis place is, somehow theres always something special abt it to make ppl stay on and live. i guess little bits of life that make us stay here and continue to stay on despite the turbulences of the economy. i read across a speak english campiagn. and i was thinkin, WTF man its the lang that makes singapore unique and different from eveyother 1st class countries. We have a muti cultural experience here that will never exist anywhere we go. so i say FUCK SPEAK GOOD ENGLISH, we are who we are.

chilling out wif buddies is kind of gd, we can say things that we seldom say to other ppl, we discuss our future past and present. we have a gd laugh on some stupid things that may seem lame to others but hey we have our fun. things lyk this that keep me going. hope to have more of this gathering =D

Friday, May 16, 2008

where are we all heading?
i will never know the ans, i gues its a one step at a time thingy which im nt gd at. today was my off day which is goiing to be over soon. this job has been nth but splendid, especially the..... =D but ig uess it really open my eyes to lots of things. it may not be in a large corporate world but i somehow get a glimpse of it. people treat people on the looks and they way they present themselves but nt on the person inside. i guess its all true. i guess tis few days after my first blog of the year, i came to think abt my future. to wad i wan to study, wad kind of life i wan to live. seeing office guys, rushing during lunch and going home late, i somehow tink if that is the kind of life i wan. its lyk jumping on the band wagon and letting society take over. today especially i saw a little gal in the mrt wanting to sleep, and when there were a few seats free up she juz laid there, her mother didnt even care and just let the gal be. I muz tink that maybe the mother has so little time spend wif the child that they giv wateva the child wans and think nth of the consequences. theres a chinese saying : No child cant be taught, there is only parents who cant teach. which i believe to be so right.

ic ant say for sure i will be a gd parent in the future but i guess i always try to be one. more often den not parenting is wad we learnt from our parents and we pick up the good points and sometimes the bad points too. haix, thinkin too far again i guess haha but these are things to ponder abt on the way home from work.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

here is place to write my tots and reflections.

starting a new chapter of life, where you reach a point in life where everything seems blurry, things seem so distant. I cant seem to find the things i wan in life, those that i reali wan to pursue. i guess a quarter of my life has pass without i know it, i guess i made mistakes and i cant take them back, how i wish i wud have nvr commit them in the first place....

with no aim in life, how far can one go, i dun know but i dragging throughout the journey... i guess for the past 15 years, things have been arrange for me, wad to study wad to wear, who to meet, wad to do. things were put in place for me to do it. Now, a emptiness fills the air, its where i make the decision. even though a journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step, how we wud ever know the first step is correct??? seeing people around me failing to be what they dream of becoming scares me, wud i be lyk them??? i guess there is a thin line between dreams and reality and sometimes reality crosses that line more often than we like it to. im afraid to make decisions, afraid to make mistakes, afraid to take the plunge, so many things im afraidof, dam its quite impossible to make the perfect decisions in life.....

i hope i will make the right one.....still feeling a sense of emptiness

Thursday, July 19, 2007

smile and the world smiles with you, frown and they shun u

life is such yea, some ppl get all the luck while people are down with it.....
been busy all this while, haix fyp and skool is sucking me dry, need a long extended break....where are holis when u need them? juz found out that booze reali take yr troubles away but they giv u new set of them =p....

some guys are meant for greatness, some are meant to stay in the shadows.........how will she ever know?

Friday, July 06, 2007

it seems i haven been blogging yea, thks to those who visit =p. tis week has been hectic and stressful. haiz, if i only wish that i was back in yr1, but then again i would have nvr known u?. Haiz dilema sia, life is full of ups and downs but can the up cover the down?

"Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools, because they have to say something."
a nice quote i read today.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

im not sure what can i say for myself....muddle headed or juz being blur. the words juz cant seem to flow out of my mouth yea, i guess im more reserve than i think im. the outer shell maybe hiding something in it, it may look confident on the outside but i guess everyone has got a weakness and a soft spot. i can think i a million excuses not to do something, but i juz cant seem to think of the right words....haiz i guess its my downfall :(
but seriosly, i guess i rate myself pretty lowly on a scale of 1-10 yea...i give people hope but i dun seem to giv myself any.....

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

angkt ashley-ben
insearch of the meaning of life

singapore
mymonk88@gmail.com

wishes
old trafford
million dollars
meaning in life